I was walking home tonight, it wasn’t quite dark yet but it was getting close and yet I was scared. This is a suburb which I am fairly used to by now, I am extremely comfortable in and truly love. During the day I wouldn’t think twice about the route I take to get home, or why there is a shadow behind me or if I can hear footsteps or not. But as soon as the sun goes down, as soon as I am alone, I feel extremely vulnerable.
Tonight as I was walking home by myself I looked over my shoulder every 20-30 seconds and held my keys tight between my fingers. I was so paranoid that someone was going to grab me from behind.
This feeling of vulnerability is something that can be attributed to many things; the media, my mums protective nature (sometimes a little over protective) and even my education. However I think it comes down to gender equality.
The fact that I had to cross the street because there was a man walking behind me makes me really mad. However I want to go further than my experience. I think that gender equality has lost its direction. What we need to strive towards is a society where women don’t have to walk home at night with keys in between their fingers. We need to strive towards a society where men don’t feel ashamed about their body size. We should strive towards a society where people aren’t treated a certain way, or made to feel a certain way or act a certain way because their gender dictates it.
I have spent a great deal of time trying to imagine my life without gender, and I don’t think I can. Our society haws a long way to come in terms of gender equality, and I think that we can make it to a point where I will feel safe walking down the street , to a point where we teach people to respect each other because we are people not because men should respect women, to a point where we can look in the mirror and see a human being not a gender and allthe associations that come along with it.
This is purely something that I was mulling over as I walked home tonight, trying to keep my mind off the man that was walking behind me.
I am safe now, drinking a pot of oolong berry.
I hope you have had some time to enjoy something today.
I would love to hear your thoughts and opinions on my post today.
Once again this is Jessica signing out.